I'll start by apologizing for "forgetting" my blog. It's not so much forgetting as being distracted.In truth, I've run a couple times since my last blog. All around a mile in just under 10 minutes a mile. Is that great? No, not really. Can I do better? Of course. And is this post really about running? Not at all.
I've mentioned in an earlier post that I am a mother. My son turned 1 a month ago. So as you can imagine, I was extremely busy planning his birthday party. I took it to the next level and ended up with a miserable kid who was way too overwhelmed and a ton of presents that I have yet to find place for! After my son's birthday party, I threw my best friend's baby shower. She's an event planner so I had to make sure the event was to her taste. I spent most of my evenings, after my son fell asleep, planning the baby shower. With all the event planning, I didn't make time to run and wasn't really focused on fitness at all. I was focused on the diaper tricycle I made - yes I did make one and it came out fantastic! Thank you Southern Fried Girl for your very easy to follow directions.
After all the event planning, I felt a void again. I realized how bored I was with my job and how that boredom translated itself into my personal life. I started looking for other jobs. I felt like I needed more Me time so I took one night a week "off" in order to go to a Bikram class. The Bikram class (it's only been one so far) was fantastic and I fell in love with my old hobby again. In fact, I fell in so much love that I have decided that I want to open a yoga studio!
If you know anything about me, you know that I am constantly coming up with new ideas and never following them through. Last week, I wanted to be an event planner on account of throwing two fabulous parties, this week a yoga studio owner. The bottom line is that I'm not satisfied with some aspect of my life. In fact, I actually think I had that epiphany right now.
The truth? I don't particularly care for my job. It pays our bills and my son's daycare expenses and for that reason, I work. But am I fulfilled from what I do? Not at all. Do I like the time away from my son and family? Another no. I want to do something that gives me time with my family and gives me the ability to work for myself. I've never really been motivated to make money for someone else. My current job gives me the flexibility to work from home a couple days a week so it's really difficult to leave at the moment.
I do know that one day I want to be the owner of something. Whether it's a yoga studio (I'm still learning towards this idea), an event business (eh, I'm kind of over this one), or a wedding dress designer (we can all dream right?), I have no clue. But one day, I will own something, I will be fulfilled and I will be happy with my career.
So how does this all translate into running? It doesn't. It's been mighty cold outside and I have barely managed to go on one run a week. Asthmatic me uses her inhaler before and after my runs. They still make me feel great and with them as well as Bikram, I'll most likely lose the couple extra holiday pounds I've gained.
Until my next rant, run, yoga class, etc..