Every once in a while, I think about life, my past, the present and my future. I wonder if I'm doing the things I thought I would be doing at this age. I think about what I want to do five years from now. I'm sure you're rolling your eyes now because that's usually an interview/first date question - Where do you see yourself 5 years from now? To be honest, I'm not really thinking about professionally at the moment. I do what I do to pay our bills. It's not personally fulfilling and eventually I would like to change that and do something that's more meaningful to me. But for now, I need to make bills (God I hate when people say that) to pay for Little Beast's daycare, our mortgage, the list goes on. But if you ask me where I see myself 5 years from now (not work related), that constantly changes. Five years ago, I would have told you, I see myself married with kids in 5 years. I guess I nailed that one. A year ago if you asked me where I see myself in 5 years, I don't know my answer would be any different. Little Beast was still very young and I couldn't really think about anything other than being a mother. But today if you ask me the same question, I have a very different answer.
Five years from now, I see myself as a happy, active, fit wife and mother who is a good influence to my son (and hopefully another child). I also hope to have a more meaningful job that inspires others to make healthy life changes like I have. You see, I've come a long way.
And no, I was by no means an alcoholic. I just really enjoyed wearing stilettos, dresses from Cache and partying. While I still enjoy the occasional high heel and dresses from Cache, I consider clubbing weekly a huge waste of time. There are so many things I'd rather be doing - like sleeping enough to get a long run in the next day. Wow, I never thought I'd say that.
I've made a lot of life changes in the last couple of years - including getting married and having a child and along the way, I have realized the importance of healthy living and feeling a sense of accomplishment. Somewhere in my short journey, I've discovered that I enjoy rest more when I deserve it.
I follow a number of blogs and have found so many women - mothers and non mothers - marathoners and beginners - that inspire me daily. In fact, I think of them to help me get through my long runs. What inspires you?